Jennifer Aniston reveals fury, pain and even sarcasm – as well as forgiveness – in her first interview since her January separation from her husband of 4 1/2 years, Brad Pitt.

In a story titled "Jen Finally Talks! (And talks and talks. And cries. And talks....)" for September's Vanity Fair magazine, the former "Friends" star declares: "Am I lonely? Yes. Am I upset? Yes. Am I confused? Yes. Do I have my days when I've thrown a little pity party for myself? Absolutely. But I'm also doing really well."

Aniston, who filed for divorce in March, speaks out about erroneous reports claiming she didn't want to start a family with Brad ("I've never in my life said I didn't want to have children. I did, and I do, and I will!") and she gives her reaction to seeing published photos of her estranged husband frolicking with his Mr. & Mrs. Smith costar, Angelina Jolie. "The world was shocked, and I was shocked," says Aniston, 36. "I'd be a robot if I said I didn't feel moments of anger, of hurt, of embarrassment." As for the shots of Pitt and Jolie playing with her young son Maddox, "I can't say it was one of the highlights of my year," Aniston admits.

Aniston is working with a therapist to deal with the situation, she tells the magazine, which has released advance copies of the issue to media outlets. As for what happened behind the scenes of Mr. & Mrs. Smith, Aniston, who says she had bought Brad's claim that he remained faithful to her, now says: "I just don't know what happened. There's a lot I don't understand, a lot I don't know, and probably never will know, really. "I choose to believe my husband," she goes on to say. "At this point, I wouldn't be surprised by anything, but I would much rather choose to believe him."

Even so, Aniston (who reportedly grows tearful when asked to comment on rumors that Jolie might be pregnant with Pitt's child), says: "There's a sensitivity chip that's missing (from Brad). ... He makes his choices. He can do – whatever. We're (about to be) divorced, and you can see why."

Unable to resist taking a swipe at Pitt's recently peroxide-enhanced scalp, Aniston snaps: "Billy Idol called – he wants his look back."

And yet, she reveals, "I love Brad. I really love him. I will love him for the rest of my life. He's a fantastic man. ... I really do hope that someday we can be friends again."

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Posted by Lawren at August 2, 2005 08:26 AM | Trackbacks (0)

You Said

STAY STRONG JEN YOU WILL ME MARRIED WITH A BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER IN 3 YEARS TIME, BRAD WHO?

Says: Ms. Puntat at August 2, 2005 11:40 AM

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Jen,
Stay strong. You've been through so much and you've handled it ALL with style and grace. On the other hand, Mr. Pitt is an A-hole.

Says: Marietta at August 2, 2005 01:22 PM

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Jen, be strong and remember you better then her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Says: karen padilla at August 2, 2005 02:20 PM

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Jen, you're a positive, high spirited, bubbly female with a great outlook on life, and good personality, with tremendous talent. I know you love Brad, however you have all of that and his ego is always going to get the better of him and catch up with him some day. There is someone out there for ya!

Says: Timothy S. Knupp at August 2, 2005 06:53 PM

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People enter our lives for many reason and to fulfill a need for our growth. Hold onto that, that was good and learn from the bad, as too not, err in that area again. The great thing about live is that we also encounter that which we do to others. He will one day, grow to love someone, who in terms will kick him to the curve. All in due time. You will one day, love again on your own terms. Keep your head held high....no shame on your part.

Says: Negra at August 2, 2005 07:37 PM

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Angelina is the better woman and that is why Brad left jen. Jen is self absorbed and only thinks of herself and no one else including Brad.

Says: veronica at August 2, 2005 09:28 PM

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Since when did so many people on here start addressing the celebrities as if they actually read this site? Just curious.

Says: Iceman at August 3, 2005 12:44 AM

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Saying Jen only thinks of herself in a negative way is not really open-minded.If you think of yourself that means you are willing to learn, experiment, adapt, and try new things. Grow up and give people a chance already will you. God the public has an attitude problem!

Says: Timothy S. Knupp at August 3, 2005 09:22 AM

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It looks like there is not much more to say about Jen. I am sure Jen appreciates the fact that I ended all of this controversey between her reputation and the media. I was glad to do it. She is an outstanding girl and I am always glad to improve society.

Says: Timothy S. Knupp at August 4, 2005 08:51 AM

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